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Do you ever just think about people who have wandered into your life in the past but have since then been taken out of your life?
I constantly think about people of my past all the time and even if we've had falling outs or they have moved away somewhere I can't help but think about what they are up to in their lives and how things are going. I have a great memory of people and places that have come into my life and sometimes I just can't help but wonder where they are at now and what their passions are.
I constantly think about people of my past all the time and even if we've had falling outs or they have moved away somewhere I can't help but think about what they are up to in their lives and how things are going. I have a great memory of people and places that have come into my life and sometimes I just can't help but wonder where they are at now and what their passions are.
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Removing my images
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Yep guys, after DA's recent discussion about what art theft is I'm afraid I'll no longer be submitting any work here. To say that theft is simply stealing a physical picture, and not any digital artwork (in a digital age) is ludicrous.
I'll still be here to answer to comments and talk to friends but don't expect to see any more from me.
I'll still be here to answer to comments and talk to friends but don't expect to see any more from me.
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When It Rains It Pours
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It turns out my grandmother (Nan as I call her) is going through an aortic repair surgery. Normally this wouldn't be a problem however there are some...complications.
Her aorta is already a size 5 (max size is 6 I think, but this information is a few years old, it's probably increased in diameter) which is already too big to operate on but get this, if they don't operate on it she'll die....However, her aorta could burst at any moment and at that point there'd be no saving her. The same thing is also causing complications in her leg which is why it has to be operated on in the first place.
However, to be honest with you all I have my doubts that she is going to live. Coming from a logical perspective she is older, 68 to be exact, she has been smoking kinda heavily all of her life and this compared with her somewhat frail frame I honestly don't think her body is going to be able to take the stress of an already HIGH risk surgery. I spoke with my step father, a trained EMT of many years and he said from his experience he said her survival rate was low...
Anyways, I guess I just sort of need to vent a little bit lately? My summer classes have now started and honestly I guess I'm sure feeling like I'm under a lot of pressure. For real, I feel like I'm in a pressure cooker about to blow up at any second because I haven't gotten a true break from last semester's ordeal. I'm sorry if I come off as a little salty, I honestly don't mean it!
Not only are summer classes gonna be hella busy but my other grandmother(in law???Stepfather's mother) has been diagnosed with lung cancer that has now spread to her spine. Docs give her about a month to three months to live and on top of that my stepfather is getting knee replacement surgery in mid-June, close to Nan's operation.
I felt like I owed you all a full explanation as to why I have sort of ceased activity. To be honest I probably won't be posting for a while, maybe the whole summer, I don't know yet. I'll still be around lurking, replying to notes and comments, ect, but you probably won't see anything new from me for a while.
I'm so stressed and scared and worried. My stomach is in knots over everything. I don't want to attend two funerals in the same year guys, I really don't. From a logical standpoint things are pretty dismal looking. So I'm expecting the worst so I can brace myself but who knows, maybe something good will come out. OTL
Even if my Nan survives I'm going to have to be the one to take care of her and although everyone says it won't all fall on me I highly doubt that. I still don't have a job and I'm worried about running out of my saved up money because I still have to pay for my gas and insurance by myself and good god guys I'm just drowning in worry over here without a life saver in sight.
When it rains it pours I guess. OTL If you actually read through all of this congrats, i didn't mean to be so long winded goodness, I just..I just don't know.I don't know. Nan goes in for surgery June 9th so I'll keep you guys posted...For now Over and Out
-A very stressed Cheshire
Her aorta is already a size 5 (max size is 6 I think, but this information is a few years old, it's probably increased in diameter) which is already too big to operate on but get this, if they don't operate on it she'll die....However, her aorta could burst at any moment and at that point there'd be no saving her. The same thing is also causing complications in her leg which is why it has to be operated on in the first place.
However, to be honest with you all I have my doubts that she is going to live. Coming from a logical perspective she is older, 68 to be exact, she has been smoking kinda heavily all of her life and this compared with her somewhat frail frame I honestly don't think her body is going to be able to take the stress of an already HIGH risk surgery. I spoke with my step father, a trained EMT of many years and he said from his experience he said her survival rate was low...
Anyways, I guess I just sort of need to vent a little bit lately? My summer classes have now started and honestly I guess I'm sure feeling like I'm under a lot of pressure. For real, I feel like I'm in a pressure cooker about to blow up at any second because I haven't gotten a true break from last semester's ordeal. I'm sorry if I come off as a little salty, I honestly don't mean it!
Not only are summer classes gonna be hella busy but my other grandmother(in law???Stepfather's mother) has been diagnosed with lung cancer that has now spread to her spine. Docs give her about a month to three months to live and on top of that my stepfather is getting knee replacement surgery in mid-June, close to Nan's operation.
I felt like I owed you all a full explanation as to why I have sort of ceased activity. To be honest I probably won't be posting for a while, maybe the whole summer, I don't know yet. I'll still be around lurking, replying to notes and comments, ect, but you probably won't see anything new from me for a while.
I'm so stressed and scared and worried. My stomach is in knots over everything. I don't want to attend two funerals in the same year guys, I really don't. From a logical standpoint things are pretty dismal looking. So I'm expecting the worst so I can brace myself but who knows, maybe something good will come out. OTL
Even if my Nan survives I'm going to have to be the one to take care of her and although everyone says it won't all fall on me I highly doubt that. I still don't have a job and I'm worried about running out of my saved up money because I still have to pay for my gas and insurance by myself and good god guys I'm just drowning in worry over here without a life saver in sight.
When it rains it pours I guess. OTL If you actually read through all of this congrats, i didn't mean to be so long winded goodness, I just..I just don't know.I don't know. Nan goes in for surgery June 9th so I'll keep you guys posted...For now Over and Out
-A very stressed Cheshire
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From Where We Began
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Just me rambling, feel free to delete this out of your news feed!
Anyways, with finals coming up I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know I haven't posted or anything recently, tbh, I don't feel like that matters. That's besides the point. So like I said, i've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I've found myself to be rather shocked because this specific thing hasn't happened to be ever before.
It's hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that when I look at something all I have are memories of a friendship. I don't hardly remember much about this specific thing anymore except when i look at it, all I see are the memories that it brings up; most of them good ones. Like a strawberry festival for example- that was a real fun time. It's just shocking that something I used to be so fond of makes me feel indifferent save for the nostalgic memories of good old times. Almost like a whirlwind dream.
All I can say is that while I find this extremely interesting I'm shocked at my feelings of both fondness and indifference, but that's okay. I just hope things have gotten better is all and that the year has gone well. It just shocks me just how our memories stay with us, you know? As much as you want to you can't just truly forget things.
However, with this being said I plan on at least being a little more active, posting here and there seems like it would be good. Just gotta get through one more week is all. Really could use a break from school although I have to take summer classes but w/e.
All I can say is, is that I'm glad I have someone who really cares for me. I'm happy that I have someone to call at 3 in the morning if I have to. I hope everyone has someone like this on a happy note. We all deserve that kind of friendship.
Anyways, with finals coming up I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know I haven't posted or anything recently, tbh, I don't feel like that matters. That's besides the point. So like I said, i've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I've found myself to be rather shocked because this specific thing hasn't happened to be ever before.
It's hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that when I look at something all I have are memories of a friendship. I don't hardly remember much about this specific thing anymore except when i look at it, all I see are the memories that it brings up; most of them good ones. Like a strawberry festival for example- that was a real fun time. It's just shocking that something I used to be so fond of makes me feel indifferent save for the nostalgic memories of good old times. Almost like a whirlwind dream.
All I can say is that while I find this extremely interesting I'm shocked at my feelings of both fondness and indifference, but that's okay. I just hope things have gotten better is all and that the year has gone well. It just shocks me just how our memories stay with us, you know? As much as you want to you can't just truly forget things.
However, with this being said I plan on at least being a little more active, posting here and there seems like it would be good. Just gotta get through one more week is all. Really could use a break from school although I have to take summer classes but w/e.
All I can say is, is that I'm glad I have someone who really cares for me. I'm happy that I have someone to call at 3 in the morning if I have to. I hope everyone has someone like this on a happy note. We all deserve that kind of friendship.
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long Time No See
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Well guys, my second semester of college has started and it's not too bad. I just wanted to let you all know that I am not dead. Besides being creatively drained I just needed time to sort things out. I'm finally able to let that bad situation that happened in November not rule my every thought like it did for a while. I'm still a little hurt over it but all in all I'm doing well! Getting stronger each day, that's for sure! Art wise, I still haven't been able to get myself to do more than just little sketches but that's okay, something is better than nothing. Would you all like to see more of them? The reason why i hardly post is because they really are all I'm doing besides drowning in Pre-calc and job hunting. xD
How have you all been? Everything been going okay on your all's end? u v u
The Lesson I learned from Malik from Assassin's Creed: Hatred is easy, it is forgiveness that is hard, although it gives greater rewards in the end.
How have you all been? Everything been going okay on your all's end? u v u
The Lesson I learned from Malik from Assassin's Creed: Hatred is easy, it is forgiveness that is hard, although it gives greater rewards in the end.
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